I’m certainly of the mind that it will be. I’ve had a rough couple of weeks. But! I decided that today is the start of a new week therefore it can also be the start of releasing the past couple of weeks. I am seriously in need of some release. Recovery and Healing. In every sense.
I have struggled, more than once recently, with just how much to share on this blog of mine. I follow quite a few blogs. Some are strictly deals/steals/coupons etc., some are book reviews, some are blog biz centered (how to develop, further, monetize, etc.), some are family centered (what we did, what we learned etc.), and a couple are completely open-share everything-no holds barred forums. While I admire the courage, the freedom, and the unabashed sense of self, I just can’t seem to do it even though part of me wants to.
First, there’s something within me that can’t quite share, this publicly anyway, all of the “failures, shortcomings, and hardships” that I and we as a family go through. And believe me, we have ALOT!!! Those of you that know me personally know full well. It’s funny. I have little to no problem at all sharing deeply personal experiences with people I know personally (rather freely and maybe sometimes TOO freely) , but when it comes to putting my imperfections out there on display for the general public…I just can’t do it. I get the psychology of it, it’s just still interesting to me. For some odd reason, I feel this need to ‘put on airs’. I think that’s the best way to say it… But you know, as I write this, I have this desire to list out all of the things going on and that I’m working on or need help with… Tres Bizarre!
I’m quite torn.
But also feeding in to this is the sensation that “nobody is interested in what we’re going through. Nobody wants to read about the sad, difficult, or crazy stuff that goes on in my/our life.” Truly. Even though we are in an age of “Reality” tv, voyeurism to the extreme, I still don’t see how anyone would be interested in MY life. Even though I admire the courage of those that share it all and part of me wishes that I could just suck it up and do it. Even though I am grateful for those that share it all, for giving the public the chance to see that a)they’re not the only ones going through ______, b) EVERYone has problems/issues/difficulties, NOone is perfect, and c) giving others the chance to learn from and take solace in others’ experiences, I somehow still feel like I’m the exception….
What the hell is THAT about?!
See?! I’m a BIG ol’ mess!
So…the ultimate question….To Spill, or Not To Spill?….. LOL!!
I certainly understand (and highly encourage) the amazingly healing powers of ‘venting’. It’s absolutely amazing how helpful ‘getting “it” out there in the open’ can be. Having someone with whom you can share and get feedback (or not get feedback) is invaluable. A support network, no matter how small or big, is essential. You can never have too much TRUE support, too many shoulders.
And then there’s this contrary notion floating around my crazy brain that I owe my followers an explanation of my absences. You small group of people that have chosen to be updated whenever some new crazy thing occurs to me or I share a new recipe. I am so appreciative of each of you. I feel like “these people signed up to hear what I have to say/share, they deserve to know what’s taking me away from saying/sharing it. They deserve to know that I’m not abandoning them and that they really are important to me”.
So. I guess it all boils down to this…
What do YOU think?? You-my readers. Would you like to hear more about the insanity that is our life? The sad and difficult along with the happy and fun?? The reality. The absolute imperfection and what I/we try to learn from it.
What are your opinions about public sharing? What do you like to read about? What do you look for?
Let me know. I am always looking to learn and grow.
Excited for you to help me on my quest,